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Re: My food log May 22, 2013

I Saw the Ad in Wholefoods for a Blue Cheese Making class,

Here's what went on in my mind:

> this is a chance to taste blue cheese
>>for $5 each, we can learn how to make cheese
>>>and at the same time taste blue cheese
>>>>I have not tasted blue cheese before and i want to find out what it taste like
>>>>>I am excited
>>>>>> i know her, she's that lady who helped me find the cheese i need
>>>>>>>and she recognized me
>>>>>>>>she looks stressed
>>>>>>>>>she must have worked  so hard putting  up this event
>>>>>>>>>>wow they are giving us a bowl of blue cheese to taste and put with the other cheese
>>>>>>>>>>> let me taste this
>>>>>>>>>>>>those blue strains
>>>>>>>>>>>>>that's bacteria
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I wonder if that will make me sick?
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>but let me taste it first and then find out
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>i really don't like it
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>these blue strains might do something in my stomach
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>but i have to eat because she looks she is tired from preparing all these

looking at this Mind Pattern, I saw Some Points:

*Projecting my Fear of sickness to the blue cheese
*Fear of Making the Host Angry - Desire to eat to please the host
*Fear of not being liked - Desire to eat to please the host

I will do self-forgiveness to release my fear
and a correction Script
That can guide me in what to do when presented with the same situation

In another blog i will redefine the words 'blue cheese', 'sickness'
and 'bacteria'

Fears:
Fear of sickness
Fear of the bacteria/mold
Fear of making others sad
Fear of being alone
Fear of others getting angry at me

Desire to be healthy/Not be sick
Desire to be liked
Desire for others to be pleased

Self-forgiveness 

Eating Food To Please The Host When Attending an Event:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of 'fear of survival - as form - as energy'

fear not being liked
fear being alone
fear being lonely
fear of others being sad
fear of others getting angry at me

believing that if i do not do what the host would want me to do
believing that if i do not eat the blue cheese
i will be inferior to the rest of the class
believing that if i do not eat
i will upset the host
and she will get angry at me

so desiring to eat food
that the body does not need
when attending an event
eating only because i want to please the host of the event
instead of eating food the body needs
when it needs the food
to support itself to survive optimally

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
participate in the design of 'fear of survival - as form - as bacteria - as energy'

fear that the mold in the blue cheese will
do something in my stomach
and make me sick

I commit myself to
when i see myself
and as i see myself
desiring to eat
to please the host of the event
i stop myself
and breathe through the desire

I commit myself to
when and as i see myself
fearing to eat the blue cheese
fearing sickness and death
believing the bacteria will make me sick
I stop
I breathe through the fear
I realize this is me as the mind
defining myself within a polarity
within frction and conflict
within sickness and health
fearing sickness - and desiring health

I realized that this is me as the mind
running away from my fear of sickness
my fear to the blue cheese and the mold
refusing to eat the cheese

desiring to cover it up
desiring to please the host by eating
whatever food is served
desiring to be 'one of the guys' or 'blend in'
desiring to please the host so she will not be angry at me
not realizing
this way
i live my fears
instead of stopping them

leading to a
consequence outflow

in 'my within' as the mind - as resonant stress
which leads to overeating - as i use food to remove the stress
instead of facing my fear

and in 'my without' as this world system
as fear of survival
which leads to being a workaholic
or a 'vacation - holic'
as i try to heal myself of the stress
instead of facing my fear

instead of facing my fear
and stopping my fear

I assist myself to face my fears
to instead of running away from them
and desiring something else
to cover up my fears
take me by the hand
and assist myself
to walk back
and see where this all started
unconditionally loving myself
being patient with myself
realizing that i accumulated these over time
and it will take years to sort this out

to through writing,
self-forgiveness and
changing myself in my living application
correct myself

I change my starting point
from eating to please the cook or the host/make her happy
to eating what the body needs
supporting it to survive optimally

Correcting My Relationship With The Virus Part 6 'Stay Away!' Day 83 Correction: HIV

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This is a continuation of this blog:

http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/03/correcting-my-relationship-with-virus_1715.html 

In this blog, i am doing a self-correction script
rewriting myself
to create another script

and creating
a new self that
is not driven by the mind
but rather self-directive

one that i can trust to stand for what is best for all life always
taking myself by the hand and walking myself  step by step
guiding myself in each and every step of the way

in/as self-intimacy
correcting myself as i live and express here in this physical existence

correcting myself everytime i see myself participating in thoughts, internal conversations, reactions, behavior etc. 
until all is free and Life is here forevermore.

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I will copy the self-forgiveness statement in the previous blog to give this blog proper context then i will do the self-commitment script at the end.

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Self-forgiveness Statement:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of/as 'fear of survival - as space'

fear that i will be contaminated if i go near gay people with HIV

doubting whether i am the one existing in space or not
believing that i am in one space and another is in another space
separate from where i am

blaming the physical for creating space
that is separate 
for those who are clean and those who are unclean
for those who are gay and for those who are not gay

giving the excuse that i have to survive as a person within space
separate from the space where the gay guy with HIV is
believing that if i share his space the virus will attack me

justifying this by saying 'i need to be whole' 

believing that i can defend my space from others who will endanger it
by not letting others in who may threaten that space
believing that i am a person that can be in a certain location in space
that is safe from danger, if i stay away from gay guys

not seeing and realizing I am HERE
and that HERE is EVERYWHERE

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Self-Correction Script

I commit myself to
when and as i see myself  
fearing that i will be contaminated with the HIV virus if i come near gay guys
I stop
I breathe

I realize that this is me as the mind
separating myself from all that is here in this physical existence
staying in a corner within my mind believing i am safe in that corner
not seeing and realizing that i created fear of the HIV virus within my mind
and then imagined the HIV virus attacking me 
fearing it and then avoiding it
staying away from
imagined enemies in my mind
staying in a corner that i proclaimed safe
from invaders. 

not seeing and realizing that I
am living a fear pattern
which I imagined

then I reacted
to this fear I imagined

not seeing and realizing this is
an illusion within my mind
that I am giving life to

by acting it out
behaving as if there is an enemy
that I have to avoid

when there is only me here
as all parts of me as life

I am HERE as breath
moving moment by moment
as who I am, what I am and how I am

I am HERE.
HERE is EVERYWHERE
EVERYWHERE is HERE.

I assist myself to stabilize me as breath and
accept and allow me to see gays as my equal
realizing that the body of gay's consist of cells
which consist of atoms which consist of substance all are made of

realizing from dust we all came and to dust our bodies will return

I assist myself to develop an equal and one relationship
with the viruses 
accepting the virus as part of me - as part of life 
consisting of the same substance all consist of

redefining the word 'gay' 
and use it as equal to my expression

redefining the word 'space' and use it as equal to my expression.

realizing that when i participate in my mind
within thoughts, internal conversations, reactions of emotions and feelings etc.
the physical is being resourced for energy 
transforming the physical to energy
for the mind to exist

weaknesses which gives rise to viruses

So,it is to realize that i am the one that is taking self-responsibility

and it is to realize that the virus is not to be resisted

as the virus' body is composed of
substance, all consist of, therefore equal to all
that is here.

The Word 'Bacteria' Day 77 Connections Mathematics

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The Word 'Bacteria'

Topic:

Releasing the energy charge and equalizing myself with the word 'bacteria'

as who i am in relation to symbols that form words and sentences which i use to express myself here - as i birth myself as Life

Why am I Using Mathematics?

I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show an example of MIND values i have given the words i connected to the word  bacteria' - which are NOT REAL  and showing the real value of words as living words.

Why am i using Self-forgiveness? http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a commitment to correct myself in how i use this word in my living application 
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Self-forgiveness Statements:

Separation
I forgive myself that io have accepted and allowed myself to  separate myself from the word bacteria through giving it a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word bacteria through giving it a negative value  

Charging It with A Positive And A Negative Value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word bacteria with a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word bacteria with a negative value
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Positive Connections/Definitions  I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word care
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word  care

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word attention
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word attention

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word stop
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word stop

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word health
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word health

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Negative Connections/Definitions
 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word test
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word test

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word deformity
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word deformity

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word sickness
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word sickness

I forgive myself that  i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word disease
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the woird bacteria within the word disease

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word death
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word death

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word worry
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word worry

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself  to connect the word bacteria to the word find
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word find

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowedm yself to connect the word bacteria to the word vaccine
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word vaccine

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word medicine
I forgive myself that i haveaccepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word medicine

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word enemy
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word enemy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word advancement
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word advancement

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word cure
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria to the word cure

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bacteria to the word doctor
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bacteria within the word doctor
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Commitment to Correction Script
 
I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness
and self- corrective application
rewrite myself 
to stop sentences in the book i have written within myself 
my whole life story
including the sentences about the word bacteria
equal to and one with how i created myself 
through spoken words in my mind 
creating myself through writing, speaking words
and expressing myself through words

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
using the words to win when i fear losing
I stop 
I breathe

I realize that 
within my fear of not surviving as the personality
is my fear of losing
and desire to win 

I assist myself to change my desire to win

to standing for what is best for all

To speak and write the word 'bacteria' as an expression of myself 
equal to who i am, what i am and how i am

I assist myself to change my relationship with fear
to instead of fear of losing
directing me

to look at where that fear comes from

forgive myself 

and  

correct myself
in my written and spoken expression

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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
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Giving Values Equal to Life I realized that i gave positive and negative values
connecting/defining the word 'virus'
to/within other words

'as in
 
Positive Connections/Definitions

stop = +100
attention =+100
health = +10

Negative Connections/Definitions

test = -10
deformity=-100
sickness = -100
disease = -100
death = -100
worry = -100
find = -50
vaccine = -100
medicine = -100
doctor = -100
enemy = - 100
cure = -100
advancement = -100'
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I realized that the values i had given this word 
are mind values which are not real

it is to realize that words are symbols that i sound 
as who i am, what i am and how i am
so assist myself to use this word
equal to my expression as Life
and realize that the value of all that is here
is equal to Life
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Quote:
 '...how one will be able to use pure sound and integrate it into  a beingness physical level in equality and onesness that  self will become that word as a living remembrance of it...' 
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The Word 'Virus' Day 76 Connection Mathematics

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The Word 'Virus'

Topic: 

Releasing the energy charge and equalizing myself with the word 'virus'

as who i am in relation to symbols that form words and sentences which i use to express myself here - as i birth myself as Life

Why am I Using Mathematics?

I am using mathematical symbols at the end of this post to show an example of MIND values i have given the words i connected to the word  'virus' - which are NOT REAL  and showing the real value of words as living words.

Why am i using Self-forgiveness? http://juneroca.com/my-process/self-forgiveness/

I am using  self-forgiveness and writing a commitment to correct myself in how i use this word in my living application 
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Self-forgiveness Statements:

Separation
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word virus through giving it a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word virus through giving it a negative value
 
Charging It with A Positive And A Negative Value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word virus with a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and alowed myself to charge the word virus with a negative value
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Positive Connections/Definitions 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word rest
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word rest

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word care
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word care


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word love
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word love

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word attention
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word attention

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word stop
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word stop
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Negative Connections/Definitions
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word sickness
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word sickness

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word disease
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word disease

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word avoid
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word avoid

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word death
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word death

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word mysterious
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word mysterious

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word pain
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word pain

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word suffering
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word suffering

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word contagious
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word contagious

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word  fight
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word fight

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word hospital
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word hospital

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word doctor
I forgive myself that ih ave accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word doctor

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word ostracize
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word ostracize

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word operation
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to  define the word virus within the word operation

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word immobile
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word immobile 
 
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word thin
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word thin   

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word nurse
I forgive myself that i have accepted and alloweed myself to define the word virus within the word nurse  

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word virus to the word medicine
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word virus within the word medicine
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Commitment to Correction Script
I commit myself to when and as i see myself 
using words to win when i fear losing

I stop 

I breathe
I realize that i fear surviving in a world of inequality

so fear losing

as that would mean the death of me as the personality/character/ego

either in writing, speaking or internal conversations within my mind

I change my starting point

and direct myself to stabilize me as breath

be clear within myself 

assisting myself to redefine the word virus

and live the word as an expression of who i am, what i am and how i am

I commit myself to when and as i see myself separating from the word virus

through giving the word a positive or a negative value

I stop

I breathe

I realize that it is me as the mind

wanting to win 

to get a positive energy experience

to be healthy

So i assist myself to accept and live 

health as me

using words as equal to my expression

I realized that giving the word virus a negative value is me as the mind
fearing losing in a world of competition
experiencing the word virus in a positive or negative way
seeking out words so i can win

I commit myself to before speaking this word 
be clear within myself 
make sure that there are no movements within myself 

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness 
and self-corrective application
rewrite myself 
to stop sentences in the book i have written within myself 
my whole life story
in this book that is myself 
equal to and one with how i created myself 
programmed or defined myself  
through spoken words in my mind
creating myself through writing words, speaking words,
and expressing myself through words

I commit myself to accept and allow me to
through my physical ears here ('hear') pure sound
assisting myself to integrate it into a beingness physical level
in equality and oneness
that self will become that word 
as a living remembrance of it
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The Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving Values Equal to Life
I realized that i gave positive and negative values
connecting/defining the word 'virus'
to/within other words

'as in
 
Positive Connections/Definitions

rest = +10

care = +100

love = +100

attention = +100

stop = +10

Negative Connections/Definitions

sickness = -100
disease = -100
mysterious = -100
avoid = -100
death = - 1000
pain = - 100
suffering = -100
contagious = -100
fight = -10
medicine = -10
difficult = -100
doctor = -100
nurse = -10
hospital = -100
ostracize = -50




medicine = -100
immobile = -100
operation = -1000
thin = -10'

I realized that the values i had given these words 
are mind values that are not real

realizing that words are symbols that we sound
as who we are
realizing that it is to use words as equal to who i am
as equal to my expression as Life
and realize that the value of all that is here
is equal to Life


We have this one Life to Live! ===

Quote:
 '...how one will be able to use pure sound and integrate it into  a beingness physical level in equality and onesness that  self will become that word as a living remembrance of it...' 
Parenting: Perfecting the Human Race Part 2 Interview by Sunette Spies
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