Texture of Pumpkin and Texture of Feces 3 Day 39 Fear Dimension

  

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In my last blog, I wrote about the imagination dimension/layer of when i see the  cooked mushy pumpkin on the table.

In this blog, I am looking at my fear - when in front of the mushy pumpkin.

 I am using elementary mathematics to show how I 'subtract value' to the pumpkin  instead of seeing its real value as equal to Life.

I am using self-forgiveness,  writing a commitment script and moving myself breath by breath moment by moment  to correct myself  as i birth myself as equal to and one with Life.

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself

 'as fear of survival - as texture' 

fear the mushy texture of feces 

as i connected it to the  bad smell of feces

where i connected the mushy texture of the feces 
to the mushy texture of the pumpkin

where i connected the feces to 

virus and bacteria

connecting the texture of the pumpkin

to fear of getting sick

connecting sickness to 

fear of death

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Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs 
Giving Value = Life

I realised that i equated the following

mushy texture of the pumpkin = mushy texture of feces
mushy texture of feces = bad smell
bad smell = virus and bacteria
virus and bacteria = sickness
sickness = bad taste of medicine
bad taste = negative energy experience
medicine = doctors and nurses
doctors and nurses = hospital
hospital = suffering/pain
suffering/pain = death

where mushy texture of feces = -10
bad smell of feces = -10
virus and bacteria in feces = -10
feces will cause sickness = - 10
bad taste of medicine (when sick) = -10
medicine ('is for sick people') = -10
( sickness leads to) death = -10

where

me as the mind equated
mushy texture of pumpkin = -70

not realizing 

the feces = Life
the pumpkin = Life

and that Life manifests and expresses itself within/as texture 

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where within this 

i am blaming the physical/substance
within spite 

for expressing/manifesting 
as taste

as smell

as texture

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and  allowed myself 

to blame the physical/substance

for how it expresses itself here

as the mushy texture of pumpkin when boiled 

as i connected the mushy texture of pumpkin to the texture of feces

when i have loose bowel movement

which reminds me of a 'negative energy experience'

as fear of losing strength after i puke

NOT seeing/realizing what happens when i participate in FEAR

not seeing that this energy i use when i participate in fear

comes from the powerhouse 

which is the body 

 resourcing the physical 

taking nutrients from the cell

and transforming it to mind energy

where the food  i eat to nourish the body 

is being used to feed the mind

as i Fear the mushy texture of pumpkin,

as i connect the mushy texture of pumpkin to the mushy texture of feces

as i think

as i  imagine

as i react

as i have back chats/internal conversations

using the mind to manipulate the body when i see a mushy boiled pumpkin

 as i get a queasy stomach
 and as i look away when i see it

to justify my desire for a positive energy experience

 running away and not looking at my fears

not realizing  i can self-forgive and correct myself in my daily application of myself

freeing myself from the limitation that i have imposed on myself

 and walking myself from my definitions based on
positive and negative values
positive and negative relationships
positive and negative experiences

changing my definitions based on information and knowledge separate from me

to definitions i can live as who i am in this physical existence
changing relationships i formed
based on giving everything and everyone
a positive and negative mind value
to real physical relationships
with/as everything and everyone

giving all a value equal to Life

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The Pumpkin Mathematics

Giving a Mind Value vs Giving Value Equal To Life

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For giving a negative value to mushy texture 

as in

Mushy texture =  no sound entertainment when i eat it = -10

giving a positive value for crunchy texture

(Crunchy Texture = Sound entertainment when i eat chips = +10)

i did not see, realize or understand that 

giving a positive and a negative values to texture

is abuse of Life

as texture is an expression of the physical/substance

so i am forgiving myself for giving positive and negative values to texture

and to instead give texture a value equal to Life

Texture = Life

where Mushy texture = Life

where Crunchy Texture = Life

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Commitment to Correction

I commit myself to when and as i see myself fearing the mushy texture of pumpkin

I stop

I breathe

I bring myself back here and stabilize me as breath

clap my hands

or stomp my feet

and accept and allow myself to establish a real relationship with my body

and establish real relationship with the body of the pumpkin 

as it is a plant

whose body/physical/substance

 is equal to my body's/physical/substance

is equal to the  body/physical/substance of nature

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I commit myself to assist myself to accept and allow myself to 

see the real value of the pumpkin

and give the body of pumpkin value equal to life 

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Cooked Pumpkin Pie Mathematics: Quesy Stomach Part 6 Day 38 : Behaviour Dimension: Texture, Smell and Taste

  

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In my last blog, I wrote about the reaction dimension/layer of when i see the  pumpkin pie on the table.

In this blog, I am looking at my behavior- quesy stomach. looking away - when in front of the pumpkin pie.

 I am using elementary mathematics to show how I 'subtract value' to the pumpkin pie instead of seeing its real value as equal to Life.

I am using self-forgiveness,  writing a commitment script and moving myself breath by breath moment by moment  to correct myself  as i birth myself as equal to and one with Life.

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Behavior Dimension

Self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself 

to not see how much the mind or energy

 can change the body 

with the amount of adrenalin and nervousness that my

'fear of getting fat'  

and 'fear of mushy texture'

manifest in the body 

when i see a cooked pumpkin pie

where i use the mind 

to manipulate the body

to justify my desires within blame

blaming the pumpkin pie 

for causing a quesy stomach, so looking away

not realizing it is me as the mind

connecting the texture of the pumpkin 

to the texture of feces 

connecting it to bad smell

connecting it to bad taste

'fearing a negative experience' 

activating a memory  of when i saw feces 

and 

the 'bad smell' that

i connected to garbage

which i connected to virus and bacteria

which i connected to being sick etc.

activating the characters within my mind

which originated from my 'fear of feces and fear of fat'

Fear of feces as

'fear of bad smell'
'fear of mushy texture'
'fear of no distinct shape'
 'fear of bad taste'
'fear of bacteria'
'fear of excreted body waste'
'fear of death/not existing'
'fear of sickness'
'fear of viruses'
'fear of being useless'
'fear of being helpless'
'fear of negative energy experience'

Fear of Fat as

 'fear of not being desired'
 'fear of being inferior'
'fear of not having a relationship'

 ' fear of being alone'

  'fear of being sad'
'fear of being  not having sex'

'fear of not being able to dress up and attend events'

'fear of being useless'

 'fear of being helpless'
'fear of not existing as the mind character that i believe i am'
'fear of a negative energy experience'

fears that i do not want to face
as the evil me 
fearing a negative energy experience

wanting the easy way out


running from my fears 


to rather experience a 'positive energy experience'

so looking at my desires 

as

desire to be healthy
 desire to be happy 

desire to eat tasty food
 desire for good smelling food 
desire for crunchy food 
 desire for the crispy crunchy sound
desire to survive as the mind character/personality

not realizing i am here as breath

in every moment

able to stop participating in my mind
able to face my fears and stop my desires

able to change and stand as self 
for what is best for all life

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The Mathematics of

Giving Positive and Negative Mind Values vs  Giving Value Equal To Life

Physical Behavior:

Quesy stomach. looking away

I realized  the value i am  giving the cooked pumpkin  pie 

is a mind value which is not real

as i created it within my mind

as i connect the pumpkin pie to my fears

connecting the pumpkin pie's texture to 

 the texture of feces

giving the feces value equal to -10
(minus 1 being the least amount of negative energy experience
and -10 being the most amount of negative energy experience)

as i connect the texture of the 'pumpkin pie' to texture of feces as  'fear of feces'

(-1) fear of bad smell
(-2) fear of mushy texture
(-3) fear of bad taste
(-4) fear of bacteria
(-5) fear of excreted body waste 
(-6) fear of death
(-7) fear of sickness
(-8) fear of the virus 
(-9) fear of being useless
(-10)fear of being helpless

giving fat a value equal to -10

(minus 1 being the least amount of negative energy experience
and -10 being the most amount of negative energy experience)

as i connect the pumpkin pie to 'fear of getting fat' 

(-1) 'fear of not being desired'
(-2) 'fear of being inferior'

(-3) 'fear of not having a relationship'

(-4) ' fear of being alone'

(-5)  'fear of being sad'
(-6)  fear of being  not having sex

(-7) fear of not being able to dress up and attend events

(-8) fear of being useless

(-9)  fear of being helpless
(-10) 'fear of not existing as the mind character that i believe i am'

instead of 

giving the cooked pumpkin pie a value equal to Life

as in

Pumpkin pie = Life

as it is made of pumpkin 

which is a plant

as plants are a part of life so it has a value equal to Life

looking at the role of fat in the body

as Fat supports the physical body in maintaining temperature etc.

giving Fat a value = Life

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I commit myself to when and as i see myself using the mind to manipulate the body to justify my desires within blame

I stop

I breathe

I realize that i am blaming the pumpkin pie for making my stomach quesy

in essence blaming the physical/substance

when it is me participating in my mind within fear

as the evil me resourcing substance transforming nutrients to energy

for use by the mind

So i am assisting myself to look at these fears

and accept and allow myself

 to establish an equal and one relationship with the physical body

and have real communication with/as the physical body 

to see what food it responds to

to assist the body to survive optimally

Cooked Pumpkin Pie Mathematics: Anxiety, Fat Etc. Part 5 Day 37 Reaction Dimension: Quantum Systemization

  

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The Mathematics of Life  

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In my last blog, I wrote about the fear dimension/layer of when i see the  pumpkin pie on the table.

In this blog, I am looking at my reaction of anxiety,  when in front of the pumpkin pie.

 I am using elementary mathematics to show how I add to the value of the pumpkin pie instead of seeing its real value as equal to Life.

I am using self-forgiveness,  writing a commitment script and moving myself breath by breath moment by moment  to correct myself  as i birth myself as equal to and one with Life.

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Self-forgiveness

Reaction = Anxiety

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in anxiety 

when i see a cooked pumpkin pie in front of me 

believing it has a lot of sugar and flour which i have defined 

as 'fatty foods' 

and as i imagine the texture of pumpkin resembling that

of feces which i have defined as having a foul smell

me as the mind 

react and 

animate mind characters/personalities

 to make it real

having connected its texture with feces

having connected it to sugar, flour and fat

which i have connected 

to

 not being liked

fear of being ugly

 fear of being inferior

 fear of being alone

 fear of not existing

etc.

where 

i cannot see the pumpkin pie

 as equal to who i am

as i experience me as the mind

 reacting to the pumpkin pie

not seeing realizing and understanding 

the extent of the process of 

where 

when i go into a reaction of anxiety

the energy i use 

for this reaction to happen

as emotions and feelings

within the mind 

comes from an energy source

which is the physical body

not asking myself these questions 

1. Can the energy  as threads 

penetrate the muscle fibers?

2. Can the energy and information 

of the personality/character

store and layer itself within the

Physical manifestation?

3. Can this energy vortex move in the direction from the personality system

into a manifestation  from where the energy system

can move through it

and can move into the physical manifestation of the cell?

4. Can this manifest into 

all the chemicals, nutrients and compositions of 

the physical manifestation 

to resource substance/physicality

and transform into energy?

5. Can it be that - the same nutrients i feed the body 

i take from it  

 resourcing from the body to transform into energy?

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Note: Please look at this reference:

Quantum Systemization Part 1
http://eqafe.com/i/lperry-quantum-systemization-crystal-and-energy-frequency-design-part-1

Quantum Systemization Part 2
http://eqafe.com/i/lperry-quantum-systemization-consciousness-currents-and-choice-part-2
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not seeing the common sense

that it is possible for all this to happen in a quantum level

where everything is sytematized

which i cannot see within 

a limited 'mind eyes'

as me as the mind 

create characters that talk to each other within my mind

to

 think, imagine, have internal conversations/backchats

using the mind to also

manipulate my body 

to move in a certain way to justify my desires

to be 'happy and blissful'

to cover up my fears 

where

i resource substance/physicality and transform it into energy

within and as my mind

instead of 

developing a real relationship with the body

and an equal and one communication with/as  it 

to see what it requires to survive optimally 

and choose what i eat accordingly

clearing the physical communication

as in 

stopping my 

'mind chatter'

so i can HERE (hear)

the hereness of sound

as who i am 

as equal to the body/physical/substance

as equal to the body/physical/substance of nature

as equal to the body/physical/substance of plants

as equal to the body/physical/substance of animals

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The Mathematics of

Giving

Positive and Negative Mind Values vs  Giving Value Equal To Life

 Reaction as Anxiety

Giving a 'mind value'  to the cooked pumpkin  pie  

equal to a 

negative value

as i  have a negative experience of it

within my mind

where

pumpkin pie =  -10

as it has flour, fat  and sugar which are ingredients one can find in the pumpkin pie

believing it can 'make me fat' 

which i connected to a 'negative mind/unnatural energy experience' 

giving 'fat' a negative mind value' as i connect it to my fear of not being liked etc.

'Fat = -10'

where the negative value i give Fat

 i give to the pumpkin pie as well

as i equate 2 different manifestations as 'the same'

based on a 'mind value'

which is based on a 'positive or negative unnatural mind energy value'

where

Pumpkin pie = -10
and 
Fat = -10

instead of giving the pumpkin pie value = Life
instead of giving Fat a value = Life

as the pumpkin pie is made of pumpkin 

which is a plant 

The plant having a value = Life

The plant being a part of  the whole, that is Life

Fat being a manifestation that supports the body's functions

Fat having a value = Life 

that is here to support the body 

The body which value = Life 

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Commitment to Correction

I commit myself to when and as i see myself 

reacting with anxiety when i see a pumpkin pie

I stop 

I breathe

I realize that i connected the texture of the pumpkin  pie filling 

to the texture of feces 

charging the pumpkin pie with a negative value

as i connected  the  texture of a cooked mashed pumpkin

which most of the pumpkin pie filling is made of

to the texture of feces 

giving it a negative value

So, i am assisting myself to stabilize me as breath

 and flagpoint myself when i see a cooked pumpkin pie on the table

and in that stability as breath

move myself from the mind to 

being here as breath with 

the physical body
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I commit myself to in the in breath 

practicing becoming aware of everything 

of my physical body 

and then in the out breath 

expressing into the depths of the physical
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I commit myself to assist myself to  

accept and allow myself 

to

 when i am moving

  eventually develop an awareness 

to at the same time able to assess 

when anything within my physical body

 is not in equilibrium 

and how to re align it 

within absolute equal and one awareness

 with ones physical 
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I commit myself to accept and allow me to establish 

an equal and one communication

with the physical body

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Note: Reference
Birthing a New Life Through The Eyes of the Horse:
http://eqafe.com/i/lperry-birthing-a-new-life-through-the-eyes-of-a-horse-part-1
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to birth me here

as who i am 

as equal to the physical/substance/body

equal to the body of nature

equal to the body of plants

equal to the body of animals

and simply live as who i am equal to all that is here