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How We Create The Weight loss Industry Series

In my previous blog, i have seen how we created
the weight loss industry
and used self-forgiveness as a way of taking self-responsibility
for what i accepted and allowed in this world

In this blog, i will correct myself
within my commitment statements and
apply that in my practical living

Correcting Myself:

I commit myself to when and as i see myself
fearing rice 
believing it will make me fat
i will research what the components of rice is
and look at what fat really is
releasing the feeling and emotion attached to it
and redefine words 

I stabilize myself
and bring me back to what is here
as who i am -  as the breath within my body
being aware of my heartbeat
as it is a physical reality that i can cross-reference 
to see that i am here, living life with all that is birthed here

instead of being driven by the belief that carbohydrates make me fat
i will look at eating small portions just enough
of what my body needs
make some  rice soups  
or reduce the amount of rice or carbohydrates i eat
and find out the amount of these food items my body needs
in addition, to also investigate what carbohydrates and fats are

Instead of being driven by the belief that my ideal weight is 115 lbs.
It is to realize that that is biased
as it is based on how i see me as 'beautiful' or 'sexy'
an idea i created in an alternate reality, within my mind
where wearing clothes that are fashionable and short like a mini skirt
when i was younger
get 'positive comments' 
or 'glances' from men 
which i connected to them being attracted to me

And instead of being driven by the belief that doctors
know about how the body works
investigate how my body work myself

Instead of believing that because doctors studied anatomy
they know everything about the body
investigate what information and knowledge is
instead of believing whatever scientists/doctors say
realize that they know the structure of the body
as per what they study in the laboratory
but are not aware of the content of what creates the structure
and so, to also investigate how the body functions myself
as my way of equalizing with the word power

I commit myself to show that the fashion and beauty industry
is a billion dollar industry 
where the ones who have money wins
and the poor loses
forgetting that fabric comes from plants
and that the earth intended for us all 
to have access to the
resources of the earth equally
not just for the few to have clothes but all of us equally clothed 
to assist the body during changes in temperature
abusing the plants within this

I commit myself to show that we can assist the poor 
by giving them a Basic/living Income, Guaranteed from birth to death
yet because of greed for money and profit 
we do not look at this
we only look at what we need, what our family needs and what our own
group needs etc. - within self-interest

I commit myself to show that the weight loss industry 
is geared to make money and profit for ones pocket
disregarding the poor
when in fact the corporations who make profit from 
resources of the earth like water, oil etc. 
can create dividends enough to pay Basic/Living Income
Guaranteed, for the poor, the unemployed, the elderly and the uneducated 

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I have an aversion to eating rice believing that it will make me fat.
I am looking at how i created this within my mind
and the consequence outflow of this in 'my without' - as the wellness and the weight loss industry

I am using self-forgiveness to release the energetic 'push and pull' within my mind which
creates a friction and conflict that results to stress and correcting the way i see rice and other food items
that i judged as 'heavy and fatty' in my living.

What is self-forgiveness?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of fear of survival - as the physical - as food - as plants - as rice - as energy

fear that rice will make me fat,
fear that fice will make me gain weight
believing that carbohydrates make me fat and make me gain weight
as i feel the heaviness when i eat rice
as i saw my weight increase when i look at my weight aftrer eating rice
as i have heard and read what doctors and wellness professionals said
'rice has carbohydrates that make you fat' - in the media
believing that doctors know about how the body works
believing that because they studied anatomy
and they studied how the body works for a long time
they must know everything about the body
and because of that i have to believe whatever they say

So, desiring to eat salads and raw foods to be fit and slim
believing that what doctors say in the media
about the dangers of obesity is true
believing that if i eat more salads and raw foods
i will have a slim and fit body
and i will be popular
believing that because stars are popular
because of their slim and fit figures
and are given attention by men and people from the media
i will get attention too
when i become fit and slim
believing that because rice feels heavy in my stomach
when i eat it
it must be bad for me
believing that when i feel heavy
i will weigh heavy on the scales
which will mean i am fat
believing that when i am fat, i am slow, lazy, sick, useless, hopeless, worthless,
believing that if i am short and fat, i am inferior to others who have tall and lean body
believing that when i have a fat face, my smile is not well defined
believing that if i have a saggy chin, i will look old
believing that old people has difficulty to move around, so lives life less
as they are sickly and dying
believing that if i am fit and slim i  look young and beautiful
believing that young people live life more because they are mobile, athletic,
adventurous, fun, fit, lean etc.
believing that when one is young, one is living life fully

instead of realizing that within this i am running away from my fear and the
negative experience i have within my mind
so, desiring the opposite and satisfying that desire to give me
a positive experience within my mind
forgetting that i am here as the breath in a body
in this physical world - this physical existence
and not in the mind world - an alternate version of this physical world
which i created so i can always be happy and where i can always win

Through this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to doubt who i am
fearing the perceived split within myself
creating a friction and conflict within myself
uncertain of whether i am in my mind world
fearing being fat
desiring Not to eat rice to be fit and slim
or in this physical world
here as breath in every moment moving me, expressing me
developing an equal and one relationship with the body

Within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think about a picture of me being ugly and fat eating rice with some 'humba', my favorite Philippine dish,
believing that when i get fat i look ugly
believing that bulges in my body
that shows up when i wear fitting clothes
are ugly
believing that lean is beautiful and sexy
believing that if my body is lean and beautiful
i will be the center of attraction and that
all eyes will be on me
making me feel special and desired
believing that when i am desired and admired
i am alive
and when i am rejected and disliked
i am a walking dead

where within this i am running away from my fear and running after my idea of beauty  within my mind world and turning my back against the physical world, generating mind energy which is taken from the body - the powerhouse of energy - instead of realizing i can stop participating in my thoughts

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see through my mind's eyes seeing only
the pictures i created within my mind and the interpretations i gave them
as per how i interpreted this physical reality
never really here as the evil me living in a secluded mind world
where i always win
not seeing the abuse going on in this physical world
because i fear to lose

Within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that i am fat and ugly imagining people doesn't want to be with me
believing that people cry alone, so i am alone in my fatness and ugliness
believing that happiness is contagious
so desiring to smile, give jokes and compliment others
believing that if i smile, i attract others
believing that if i give jokes, i get laughter back from others
believing that if i compliment others, i make them happy
believing that if i make others happy
they will remember me
believing that if they remember me, i will be alive in their memories
believing that the more people have good memories of me
i am successful in living life

where within this i am forming a picture within my mind as an inferior character that is an alternate version of me generating energy, in the process, using energy coming from the body - the evil me feeding the body and then taking energy from it so i can imagine pictures within my mind - instead of realizing that i can breathe through and stabilize myself  as breath when and as i am presented with pictures - where i do not cloud my judgment and instead, see reality as what it is.

Within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have a backchat within my mind saying, 'i don't care i will just do what i want to do'
believing that i tried different diets before and it did not work
so, not caring about diets, will work
believing that if one does not work
the opposite of that will work

where within this, i am trying to be whole wiithin balancing 2 polarities
and abusing words within my mind as backchat uses words
just like when we speak or write
generating energy within my mind
transforming physical energy to mind energy
instead of realizing that i can stop participating in this backchat
and be stable here as breath in every moment, moving me, expressing me

Within this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when i
see my mom eating with her hands with 'gusto' food such as
rice with other Filipino dishes like 'adobo', 'sinigang' etc.
have a backchat within my mind 'she is already fat yet she does not really care'
where i use and abuse words within my mind
judging and projecting my own fears and desires to her and other people in my world
where i am trying to get away from my fear of being fat
though the emotion of pity

Within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
react in guilt and apathy so eat however much i like
even if it does not support the body's survival optimally
when i am bored, so i will be entertained
when i am talking with someone, so i will be entertained while talking
when i am taking a break from doing my assignment, so i will make life easy for me

where within this i am generating mind energy and transforming physical energy to feed the mind
to energize my mind world
and escape from the abuse that is here in this world
retreating from what is real to go to an unreal world
where i am always happy, and winning - within self-interest

Within this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to create a consequence outflow within my acceptance and allowance
of this fear of being fat in my within
and so, creating a consequence outflow in my without - of/as the weight loss industry
where people like me
fear being fat and ugly
and desires to be slim and fit
making wellness a billion dollar industry
capitalizing on my fear of being ugly and my desire to be fit and slim
and recreating an unequal world system
making money and profit for myself - within self-interest

where the earth's resources land in the hands of the corporations
depriving others of their share
instead of nationalizing the earth's natural resources
and sharing their profit to others
through paying them a Living Income, Guaranteed from birth till death
where not only few wins  - but where all wins

Through this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the physical for creating food
that makes people fat
like rice
instead of realizing i am the one who created the fear within my mind
so i am the one that will take self-responsibility for what i accepted and allowed
in 'my within' - as the mind
and in my without - as this world system

Through this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
have the excuse that i have to survive as the ' i don't want to be fat' personality
instead of realizing that i do not have to fear survival and then try to transcend this fear within my mind
rather, to assist in changing this world system
from inequality to us, walking as equals
within a balanced ecosystem of money

Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify the excuse that i have to survive as the 'i don't want to be fat' personality
so i can be whole instead of realizing that
this is me running away from my fear
then desiring to Not eat rice to be beautiful and fit
instead of realizing that this is balance in polarity ( positive and negative)
and that real wholeness
does not need to be attained within balancing 2 ends of a pole
realizing that it is the same pole
and that real wholeness
is about standing for what will benefit the body
developing an equal and one relationship with it
and standing for what is best for All in this One Life

Eating When Bored

When i am bored, there is this rush to stand up and go to the refrigerator to look for something to eat. When i cannot find one that i really like, i look for food items available in the house. I then take a memory from my mind of that 'tasty dish' i ate in the past remembering its taste and then taking that memory and the information to make the dish. This is mind directed - a part of a mind program that is controlling me to act in a certain way that will energize the mind. I have to stop accepting and allowing this, because the consequence of this is that the body which is supporting me to express myself here will be unable to survive and will not be able to assist me because the natural energy it produces will be converted by the mind to unnatural energy . The mind will resource the body for energy to survive.

Here is an example of a timeline:

>i am bored
>I need something to eat
>what do we have here in the fridge?
>I open the fridge
>I take food out from the fridge
>I eat the food

What is self-forgiveness?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the design of
fear of survival - as texture - as form - as energy

where i participate in a mind design
as the evil me
preoccupying myself with
thoughts, reactions, imaginations etc.
where i go within my mind to think, imagine etc.
losing track of what is here

Fearing that i am bored without tasty food
to eat that will entertain me
so longing/desiring to find/make food or a dish that i like
believing that i have to start looking at the refrigerator
for tasty food
or make one that will entertain my tastebuds
believing that i need totaste a dish that i ate before
looking for a certain taste within my mind - a memory of an
exciting dining experience

the evil me running away from my fear
instead of facing it and finding out where it all started

desiring to eat food that will give me a happy feeling
by eating a combination of food with
crispy texture like chips
and a creamy, cold frozen texture like ice cream
the evil me using food to entertain the mind to win
running away from my fear of being bored
and using food to entertain me as the mind

instead of realizing that i am here as breath able to enjoy
who i am in every moment
cascading through the depths of the physical body
as i inhale and exhale as an expression of me here
moving me, directing me, expressing me

Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
doubt who i am
perceiving i split myself into 2
uncertain whether i am the one
who is entertained by tasty food
or the one who is not entertained by it
needing something to satisfy my desire
instead of realizing that i am here as breath
in every moment as who i am, what i am and how i am

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be so preoccupied within
my mind as to whether the food that i will eat is tasty or not
and within that miss the expression of the plant or animal in front of me
as the physical/body made of the same substance
the dust of the earth
which my body is made from and all bodies is made from
the dust of the earth - to which all bodies will return
one and equal

Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame this physical existence for creating foods that i do not like
which gives me a negative energetic experience
accusing nature and putting the blame on nature
instead of realizing it is nature that sustains life on earth
it is nature that sustains this body
realizing that i am the one creating this need in my mind
to be entertained by food
rather than facing this fear and seeing where it started
so i can stop

where as i take myself by the hand and unconditionally assist myself
walking back, seeing
that it was when i was waiting for my 'crush'
in the elementary grades to notice me
that i ate and ate a lot of the sweets that my great grandmother was cooking
hoping that he would notice me and smile at me and hold my hands
within my mind
i suppressed the feeling

where within that i am waiting for something that will give me
a happy energetic feeling of being loved
using food momentarily to feel good and satisfied

instead of realizing that i am the one that has to stop
to desire a positive energy experience
and instead of blaming another
take self-responsibility for what i accepted and allowed

Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
eat when i am bored even when i am Not hungry, to be entertained
by the taste, temperature and texture of food
instead of realizing that hunger is a signal that my body lacks glucose
and eating is about giving the body food that will support it to get the glucose that it needs
and other nutrients it need.

Through this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to have the excuse that i want to survive as the personality being entertained by food
believing that survival is about having a happy energetic experience
when eating food
believing that survival is balance in polarity
from a negative pole to a positive pole
instead of realizing i created this personality as the alternate me within my mind
not realizing who i am is here, moving me breath by breath moment by moment

Through this, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify my excuse that i have to survive as the personality
that desires to be entertained through food
to be whole
believing that the negative pole is a part of me that is evil
and the positive pole is the part of me that is 'good'
believing that if i embrace that part of me which is good
i will be whole

instead of realizing that wholeness is not about
time travelling within my mind from the negative to the positive pole

Wholeness does not need separation from the source

it is about releasing the positive enrgy
moving the energy
as i breathe in
and i breathe out
letting it go in the outbreath
and realizing who i am Is here
as the breath
so i stabilize me moment by moment

and correct my starting point
From wanting to entertain my mind within eating food
within self-interest
To developing an equal and one relationship with the body
giving the body enough nutrition it needs daily
for it to survive and support  me
to do what i set out to do
standing for what is best for all

I commit myself to when and as i see myself bored and about to open the refrigerator,
I stop. I breathe
I correct my starting point - making sure that i am hungry before i get something to eat
and make sure that i have a food item that will give nourishment for the body and something that the body prefers to eat.

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Fat

In this blog i am looking at my relationship with the word 'fat'' - separating from the word by charging it with a positive and negative value - looking at the words i connected it to and defined it within - where i did not see it equal to my expression and to through writing, self-forgiveness and self corrective application assist myself to release the charge and use the word as equal to my expression .

Self- forgiveness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word fat by giving it a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate from the word fat by giving it a negative value
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word fat with a positive value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word fat with a negative value
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POSITIVE
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word skin
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word skin

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word tasty
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word tasty

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word vegetable
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word vegetable



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word weightloss
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word weightloss

NEGATIVE

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word fear
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word fear

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word  weight
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word weight

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word sugar
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word sugar

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word carbohydrates
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word carbohydrates 


I forgive myself that  have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word oil
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word oil

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word gain
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word gain

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word ugly
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word ugly

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word unhealthy
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word unhealthy

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word heart
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word heart

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word attack
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word attack

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word meat
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word meat

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word sickness
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word sickness

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word death
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word death

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word fat to the word guilt
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fat within the word guilt
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Commitment to Correction:

I commit myself to when and as i see myself separating myself from the word fat by giving it a positive or a negative value - i stop - i breathe - i change my starting point and bring myself back here aware of me as breath and assist myself to use the word as equal to my expression as who i am.

I commit myself to see the common sense of 'fat' being a word - and that's all there is to it - so no need to react to it or connect /define it to/within other words - to instead use the word as equal to my expression.

I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application, release the beliefs i have about fat and assist myself to redefine the word - and give it a meaning i can live as living words

Weightloss: Day 13 Fear of Being Fat: Experience of The Word 'Wheat'

 

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Fear of Being Fat:
Eating Wheat Noodles 

Fear Dimension
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when i eat wheat noodles create a relationship of fear to fat - believing the information and knowledge i have heard and seen and accepted that as my truth - 'unaware' of what is here as who i am as the creator of my 'within and without' -where from this relationship with fat - of fear - i have created the 'weightloss diets' in this world - as the weightloss industry ( which is about money and profit) -  as my 'without' as this industry is composed of individuals like me who fear getting fat  and those who owns businesses that provides a so -called solution - that promises one to be thin - is earning money or making profit from this very fear that i am participating in - within/as my mind - so creating this very system from my fear of being fat

I commit myself to when and as i see myself eating wheat noodles and fearing being fat - i stop - i breathe. I change my starting point to instead of fearing being fat - i write about my fear and ask myself the question, 'is this what i want to be as who i am as the creator of my 'within and without'? Creating fear within my mind and creating an industry based on that same fear in my 'without' - as i see realize and understand that this can be stopped as i created this within my mind  - so assist myself in writing, self-forgiveness and commit to correction in my moment to moment application - and face my fear - to align my expression of who i am 'within and without' to what is best for all - and to assist in establishing a world that truly honors life based on equality - where animals and plants are not slaughtered for food and profit

Thought Dimension

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to when i eat cooked wheat noodles, like 'Pancit' or 'Chow Mien/Lo Mien' i have these thoughts run through/within me :

'These noodles are tasty'

- where i go within my mind thinking  these thoughts-  transforming the substance//body to energy for the mind to exist - instead of seeing the wheat noodles as what it is - as food to sustain my body - made of the same substance the physical/body is made of - the body of nature is made of - the animal's body is made of, the plant's body is made of.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself having thoughts about the noodles being tasty, getting a positive energy experience in eating the noodles- i stop - and breathe and assist myself to see that i am here as breath moment by moment - and assist myself to release the beliefs i have about what taste is and accept and allow myself to see how the body responds to the food and assist myself to establish a real physical relationship with/as the body.

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Imagination Dimension

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine a picture of me having difficulty to move - face with double chin, stomach bulging out of eating the noodles - and judge myself as fat and ugly within that imagination - and then fearing the picture - not realizing that i put the picture there

I commit myself to when and as i see myself imagining a picture within/as my mind of how i would look when i eat the wheat noodles - within a picture of  a woman who has difficulty of moving because of fat restricting her movement - in my head - i stop - i breath - to instead of imagining an alternate version of me within my mind - which is an alternate reality that is separate from what is here as physical reality - i bring myself back here - to see what is here as the physical/body/substance as flesh as blood 

I commit myself  to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - stop the memories as pictures, fears, desires etc. within myself and let go of the separation within myself and stand with the body in every breath that i take.

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Backchat

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to, when i have the thought ,and the imagination, extend this to an internal conversation within my mind, 'This will make me fat, i will just eat a little bit, no one knows i promised myself to just eat a little bit, so i can eat all of this, it taste good'

- using words within my mind separate from me and abusing the use of words - in an alternate reality as the alternate version of me - i stop and breathe. I realized that i am judging the wheat noodles based from knowledge and information which i heard or seen from tv, my relatives, friends or the internet which i accepted as my truth, forming a relationship with it within my mind - according to how i experience it - to instead of going within my mind - in my head - where i know that when i do that the the mind needs energy to survive and that energy has to come from the body - where  substance is being resourced and transformed to energy for the mind to survive/exist - where the very sustenance i give the body when i eat - gets transformed into mind energy  - where as i fear, and refuse to look at the fear - and desire happiness - i create a friction ( a polarity manifestation, + and - ) that transforms substance to energy.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself having internal conversations within my mind when eating wheat noodles - i stop i breathe - to instead of having internal conversations within my mind using words in separation of me - i redefine the words wheat and noodles and use it as equal to my expression and through writing, self-forgiveness and self corrective application release myself from my beliefs about what the wheat noodles can give me or not give me as the mind - so i can or cannot feel good and look good and stop seeking a 'positive energy experience' out of eating it - and instead be here aware of me as breath assisting myself to accept and allow me to communicate with/as the body in what sustenance it needs to survive and being able to 'hear' here.

Reaction Dimension

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to evolve this 'fear of being fat'  and animate characters from emotions and feelings, where i have feelings of happiness to see the wheat noodles on the table, smelling the aroma which i connect to satisfaction and being full and connecting the texture of the noodles to threads of happiness i can play with inside my tongue - and give pleasure to me within my mind and accepting and allowing myself to get a 'positive energy experience' from eating it and then accept and allow myself to after eating it feel guilty eating it when i know i decided not to eat it (based on my beliefs of what will make me fat and what will not make me fat) - within that blaming myself for eating it - when instead of doing that, i can look at what is here, as the physical/body - and look at the common sense that it is made from same substance the physical/body of nature, the earth, plants, animals etc.is made of and eat from that starting point where the physical/substance/ body will not be resourced and transform to energy as what is best for all.

I commit myself to when and as i see myself reacting to the wheat noodles, fearing it, desiring to eat it , being guilty of eating it,  blaming myself etc.- i stop - i breathe and instead of reacting, to assist myself to eat in awareness of who i am when i eat wheat noodles - as equal to the body/physical - equal to the body/physical of nature, the earth, plants, animals etc.-slow myself down when eating, assisting myself to be aware of me breath by breath, moment by moment - accepting and allowing myself to see how the body respond to the food  i am giving it.

Body Movements

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to manipulate the body to justify my desires where i use the mind to manipulate my neck: 

 - as in, my neck extending as i eat the noodles to stretch the noodles to release it from the rest of the noodles - within me seeking a 'positive energy experience' from eating it - as i extend my neck to release the a noodle strand from the rest of the noodles - playing - to cover up the sadness that i experience within me from the awareness that i am completely diregarding life - pretending to be 'unaware' that i did not take self-responsibility - when all the while i am 'aware' of what i did within/as my mind - disreagrding all parts of me in separation of me - which i did within an alternate reality within /as my mind - where no one will know, no one will see the evil that is lurking within the inner recesses of my mind, only interested in making myself 'happy' - disreagrding the equal real agreement that exist between all parts of life - as all of me - to live as equals - and instead took more for me leaving less for others- just doing what will make me happy

I commit myself to when and as i see myself using my mind to manipulate my body when eating  wheat noodles - where my neck is extending as i eat the noodles to stretch it - to get a 'positive energetic experience' from it- i stop - i breathe and change my starting point from covering up the fear and then desiring happiness from eating the wheat noodles - to bring myself back here and assist and accept and allow myself to see the body/physical as equal to my expression - to see the wheat noodles as equal to my expression -  eat in awareness of me - looking at how the body responds to the food and to through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application - assist myself to equalise with/as all parts of me as life.

Consequence Dimension

I forgive myself that i haven't accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand the extent of consequence of having fear of being fat - where the body is being resourced and transformed to energy when i think, i imagine, react, have a backchat etc. - 'within' and as my mind - depriving the body of the nutrients it needs to survive so the mind can exist - and create the weightloss industry as my 'without' and other industries created to cater for people wanting to 'look good and feel good'

I commit myself to assist and support me to stop my preoccupation with fear of being fat and establish self-awareness of me as i participate in reality and stop the excuse of me wanting to look good and feel good being a valid reason for fear of being fat - because i can hide behind the fear being fat but how can i hide from me - i will eventually take self-responsibility for me and -so commit to face me here - and  instead of deciding for the body within my mind - assist myself to develop a physical relationship with the body - as eventually it is the body that is going to communicate with me what sustenance it needs to survive - assisting in establishing a world that truly honors life - based on equality - where plants and animals will not be sold for food and profit - until we do not have to kill to survive.