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Monday, January 21, 2013

Redefining International Cuisine: How I Started Eating Meat Day 55: Humba



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I am bringing a memory back here of when i started eating meat- to look at my fear of survival and my fear of death - as the one directing me in my choice of what to eat.  So, let's look at the following points:

a. Fear of survival 

I was born with parents who are meat - eaters. As a child i need mother's milk to survive so my mother fed me mother's milk. When i grew older i need to eat to assist my body to survive, so whatever they give me to eat, i ate. I was scared of being hungry and was scared of dying

b. Copying What My Parents Eat
My parents ate Filipino food so i ate Filipino food.

c.  Desire to Eat Tasty Food
'Meat tasted good. I like the food my mom made me when i was young, specifically 'humba' ( pigs knuckles in a Philippine 'humba' sauce). I used to ask her to make this for me. When i come home from studying in the nearby town every weekend, i look forward to eating this. This showed me how much my mom loved me'. 

So i am walking back and bringing the memory  back here so i can look at my Fear of survival and my fear of death.

Note: I will highlight the relevant part of the story line with pink

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A Copy of 

My Food Programming

- Memory:I was born to this world without an assurance that i will get the basic necessities i need to survive. 
- Memory: I fear surviving in this world of competition and self-interest. 
- Memory: I cried and when my mom heard me cry, she came and fed me mother's milk
- Memory: My family fed me anything that was available for me to survive and i ate it
- Memory:  I saw them cooking and eating food so i tasted it and liked the taste of it so i ate what was served on the table
- Memory: I liked meat when i was young specifically 'humba' ( pigs knuckles in a Philippine 'humba' sauce) - a dish my mother cooked for me) so i ate more of it and other foods that was given to me
- Memory: To forget my fears,  i entertained myself with food
Memory: I heard a story where my grandmother was telling me that when i was young, she was so angry to see a cockroach very near me while she was watching me as i was sick and dying in the hospital. She said that happened when she was ' praying to God to save my life and at the same time imploring him to take my life and not let me suffer if it was not meant for me to survive'.
- Memory: when i wasabout 7 -8 yrs old, i felt weak, lying down on bed having a flu and taking  medicine that had a 'bad taste' when i was young living with my grandmother
- Memory: when i was in high school i was having heart pains -then was told by a doctor that i have 'angina', a mild form of heart disease which the 'specialist' dismissed as 'nothing' after he tested my heart and  advised me to just play outdoors' - yet in my mind i had this fear of getting sick and dying which i kept to myself
Memory: I did yoga and meditation                                                            (fear of getting sick)
Memory: I heard and read that the 'sentient vegetarian diet' (a vegetarian diet without onions, garlic, mushroom and eggs) was a healthy diet 
Memory: I  was invited to a sentient vegetarian dinner where they were talking about health
Memory: I adopted a 'sentient' cooked vegetarian diet - believing that food like mushroom, garlic, onion, meat, fish etc.  has  'negative energy' in them' and that generally vegetables, fruits, nuts, milk, butter have positive energy in them (as the guru said so ) 
Memory: I learned how to cook a 'tasty' vegetarian diet
Memory: I believed that the vegetarian diet is 'better than' a carnivorous diet - believing it is a 'healthy diet'
Memory:  I practiced the 'sentient vegetarian diet' for 29 years and believed the sentient vegetarian diet is  healthy and that it is the diet of spiritual people or highly evolved people
Memory: I attended a vegan get-together and saw a film where the doctor took solidified fat inside a man's artery
Memory: Fear going to the hospital - fear of being operated on, fear of pain, fear of sickness, fear of death
Memory: I did not like the diet - as it tasted bland 
Memory: Disregarded my fear of eating bland food because i know i can make the food taste good 
Memory: I adopted a vegan diet                                             (fear of getting sick)
Memory: I ate in a restaurant and tasted raw' tasty' food
Memory: I researched about raw food
Memory: I read that raw food can heal people's illnesses
Memory: I took knowledge and information that i have heard and seen from the media as my truth 
Memory: I learned how to make raw foods                 (fear of getting sick) 
Memory: I adopted a raw food diet
Memory: It tasted good
Memory: I 'felt good and looked good' after eating 100% raw food
Memory: I equated eating 100% raw food to 'being the best diet in the planet'
Memory: Some of my raw food friends started juice feasting
Memory: I researched about juice feasting
Memory: I read that it can remove toxins in the intestine
Memory: I did juice feasting                                                    (fear of getting sick)
Memory: I felt good and light
Memory: I saw a man in a youtube video surviving just eating fruits
Memory: My dad had an illness so i visited him one day and was surprised to know that he was just eating fruits, he looked 10 years younger his age and he's healed from his illness
Memory: Decided to eat only fruits
Memory: I felt light and I looked younger
Memory: I saw a man in a youtube video teaching personal fitness and running very fast who claimed he was a breatharian
Memory: I wanted to know if the body still has energy even when it's not getting food
Memory: I researched about inedia and breatharianism
Memory: I found out Lao Tzu who i traced as the proponent of 'Taoism' - is the proponent of Inedia
Memory: I found out that he just disappeared and connected that to 'immortality'
Memory: Where i work, they started a weightloss contest
Memory: I decided to test not eating nor drinking for 3 1/2 days   
Memory: I started fasting without water nor food once a week and then twice a week, 2 1/2 days a week and then 3 1/2 consecutive days not eating nor drinking    (fear of not surviving without  food and water/fear of death)
Memory: I found out my body only wants to sleep for 2 hrs and has all the energy throughout the day to do what needs to be done
Memory: I found out i can run faster when i was not eating - also feeling so light -  than when i was eating
Memory: I was mesmerized by these new found 'feats'
Memory:  I considered myself 'special' believing that the majority of people eats food and i didn't - believing they were 'normal and i was special'
Memory: I found out my body is beginning to adopt to not eating on the third day of the 'no water no food fast'
Memory: I fear sickness and death - so it came up and i saw myself fearing not being able to eat for a long period of time
Memory: I heard someone saying that breatharianism is a 'mind energetic bullshit'
Memory: I fear continuing my fast                                   (fear of getting sick/death)
- Memory: I stopped

I am presently doing self-forgiveness for my fears and correcting myself in my living
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This clearly shows me that my decision to be a meat eater was directed by my Fear of surviving


To be continued in the coming blogs

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