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This Blog is a continuation of this blog :
http://foodandnutritionjunejourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/texture-of-pumpkin-and-texture-of-feces.html
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Self-forgiveness
Backchat:
'Nah, i don't like to eat that'
to participate in the design of/as ' fear of survival - as texture'
coming from a belief that
i will not survive if and when i eat a boiled mushy pumpkin
connecting the texture of the pumpkin to being sick and dying
within my mind
through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to extend the thought and the imagination
to a backchat or internal conversation
where i use words separate from me
within and as my mind
within and as my mind
having internal conversations
saying 'Nah, i don't like to eat that'
when i see a boiled mashed pumpkin
on the table
having a memory of me in the toilet seeing
the texture of the feces inside the toilet bowl
connecting that memory of the texture of the feces
to the texture of the boiled mashed pumpkin
where i connected the odor of the feces
to the texture of the feces
connecting the texture of the feces to the texture of the boiled mushy pumpkin
then
connecting the (bad) smell of feces to the texture of the mushy pumpkin
connecting the (bad) smell of the feces to the bad smell of the medicine
that my grandmother gives me when i was sick
connecting the bad smell of the medicine to puking
connecting puking to weakness
connecting weakness to sickness
connecting puking to weakness
connecting weakness to sickness
and connecting sickness to death
as me as the mind connects the feces to sickness and death
the value of the pumpkin 'deflates further'
creating a relationship with the pumpkin
and experience the pumpkin in a 'negative way'
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connecting the pumpkin to the
following
bad smell of feces
bad smell of medicine my grandmother gave me when i was sick when i was young
weakness
being sick
death
where
i separated from the word pumpkin
and charged the word pumpkin with a negative value
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to doubt myself and become uncertain about who i am
when i see a mushy pumpkin
believing i will split myself into 2
the self that exists eternally
and the one that will die
as i connect the texture of the boiled mushy pumpkin with
fear of getting sick - and fear of dying
Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
blame the physical for creating differences in texture
within spite
so spiting the mushy texture of the pumpkin
believing this will lead to me dying
as i connected the mushy texture of the pumpkin to feces, sickness and death
Through this
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself
to have the excuse that i have to survive
believing that i should not eat the mushy pumpkin to exist eternally
believing i will die if i will get weak, get sick and die when i eat it
Through this
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to
justify not wanting to eat the pumpkin
by saying 'i have to be whole'
to survive/exist eternally
believing that if i will not eat the mushy pumpkin
i will survive/exist eternally
as i connected the mushy texture of the pumpkin
with feces, sickness and death
instead of seeing and realising that
the mushy pumpkin consist of the same atoms
all food items are made of
as everything that is here consist of
not realising that if i stop participating in this internal conversation
and see what is here in this physical existence
I will see that all are made of atoms
All having a value equal to/ as Life
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I commit myself to when and as i see myself having a backchat about the
mushy texture of the pumpkin
mushy texture of the pumpkin
I stop - i breathe'
I realise i have connected the word pumpkin to other words
which i had given negative values to
deflating the value i gave the pumpkin
which led to me
having internal conversations
as in
'Nah, i don't like to eat that'
and see the common sense that we consist of the same atoms
so we have to Live this one life as equals
and assist in establishing a world that truly honors All Life
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I commit myself to live the redefined meaning of the word pumpkin
and flag point myself when and as i see myself attending a gathering
having mushy pumpkin on the table
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Mathematics of Giving Positive and Negative Values
Vs
Giving values Equal to Life
I realised that the values i gave the pumpkin
as an example of these values :
texture of feces = -100
texture of pumpkin = texture of feces = -100
texture of feces = bad smell = -100
Bad smell = the medicine my grandmother gave me when i was sick = -90
medicine with a bad smell = pukingpuking = weakness
weakness = death
texture of mushy pumpkin = death
pumpkin = -10
the values i gave
the pumpkin
the pumpkin
was not a real value
as i gave the value within and as my mind
instead of realising that the real value of the pumpkin
is equal to life
Pumpkin = Life
and will be clearly seen by me
when i stop participating in my mind
looking at what is here in this physical reality
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