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Thursday, March 20, 2014
How To Cut A Pineapple Into Chunks
Mango, Kiwi, Strawberries and Pineapple
Fruit Plate
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Procedure:
Cut the top of the pineapple.
Cut a slice.
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Cut the peel off including the 'eyes'.
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Cut it in half.
Cut into quarters and then cut the core.
This is how it will look like when you cut the core.
Cut each slice into half.
This is the pineapple cut into chunks:
This is the pineapple cut into chunks:
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Monday, May 20, 2013
Decoding The Mind of A Juice Feaster and A Cancer Patient Day 97 Cancer Cure
In my past blogs i was decoding my mind as a meat eater
cooked vegetarian, cooked vegan, raw foodist, sungazer/liquidarian,
cooked vegetarian, cooked vegan, raw foodist, sungazer/liquidarian,
a juice feaster, a fruitarian and a recovering raw foodist
I am in a way hacking my mind
decrypting the codes of my mind
When i looked at my food programming timeline
I saw repeating patterns
Let's look at My Mind As A Juice Feaster (one who survives on juice)
and A Breast Cancer Patient
I will bring my memories back here of when i became a 'Juice Feaster' (One who survives on juices) and when i had Breast Cancer (2008) and look at it, in this moment:
I am in a way hacking my mind
decrypting the codes of my mind
When i looked at my food programming timeline
I saw repeating patterns
Let's look at My Mind As A Juice Feaster (one who survives on juice)
and A Breast Cancer Patient
I will bring my memories back here of when i became a 'Juice Feaster' (One who survives on juices) and when i had Breast Cancer (2008) and look at it, in this moment:
Pattern Number 9
Mind of a Recovering Juice Feaster/ Cancer Patient
>when the doctor told me i had breast cancer, i was not surprised as i have seen the tumor grow
>>I hid it believing it will stop growing and magically disappear
>>I hid it believing it will stop growing and magically disappear
>>>i hoped that through good nutrition and a healthy diet i can fix this
>>>>it is now obvious this does not work, it can make me feel light or heavy
>>>>>but it does not heal the cause of this
>>>>>>i wanted to know the cause of cancer
>>>i have to do research myself
>>>>i will search the internet and see what they have in terms of cure
>>>>>some uses baking soda in their water
>>>>>>some go and check in - in expensive health resorts that give them a healthy diet
>>>>>>>some juice wheat grass
>>>>>>>>some cleanse their blood through oxegenating it
>>>>>>>>>but how do i know what really happened to them
>>>>>>>>>>how do i know the ins and out of what they went through
>>>>>>>>>>>I am confused
>>>>>>>>>>>>I still do not know what works
>>>all i know is that i have to take the mental cause of this, head on - look at my thoughts, backchats etc.
>>>>i will use self-forgiveness for that, i have used it for a year - it's difficult but it makes sense
>>>>>it is me that is forgiving myself so i know i am doing something for myself for real
>>>>>>and then i will take on the physical part which is, assist my body to survive
>>>>>>>this is a big thing, it is difficult because this does not allow me to even feel sad about this
>>>>it is now obvious this does not work, it can make me feel light or heavy
>>>>>but it does not heal the cause of this
>>>>>>i wanted to know the cause of cancer
>>>i have to do research myself
>>>>i will search the internet and see what they have in terms of cure
>>>>>some uses baking soda in their water
>>>>>>some go and check in - in expensive health resorts that give them a healthy diet
>>>>>>>some juice wheat grass
>>>>>>>>some cleanse their blood through oxegenating it
>>>>>>>>>but how do i know what really happened to them
>>>>>>>>>>how do i know the ins and out of what they went through
>>>>>>>>>>>I am confused
>>>>>>>>>>>>I still do not know what works
>>>all i know is that i have to take the mental cause of this, head on - look at my thoughts, backchats etc.
>>>>i will use self-forgiveness for that, i have used it for a year - it's difficult but it makes sense
>>>>>it is me that is forgiving myself so i know i am doing something for myself for real
>>>>>>and then i will take on the physical part which is, assist my body to survive
>>>>>>>this is a big thing, it is difficult because this does not allow me to even feel sad about this
>>>>>>>>i have to be here and look at the physical body and what will commonsensically help
>>>>>>>>>this is a big job
>>>>>>>>>>but if i transcend all these
>>>>>>>>>>>i will be stronger and know more about myself
>>>>>>>>>>>>and I will not be scared of death anymore
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i'd like to transcend this
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i have tackled many problems in my life and i am still here so i know i can do this
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I just have to pull myself together
>>>>>>>>>this is a big job
>>>>>>>>>>but if i transcend all these
>>>>>>>>>>>i will be stronger and know more about myself
>>>>>>>>>>>>and I will not be scared of death anymore
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i'd like to transcend this
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i have tackled many problems in my life and i am still here so i know i can do this
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I just have to pull myself together
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>it is very difficult to look at the practical side of things when i have fear of death
>>>the doctors just do what they do like a robot of the system
>>>>and the information in the internet does not help me to decide what to do
>>>>>i wish i will find something that will tell me what to do exactly
>>>>>>what is the cause of this
>>>>>>>and how to survive this
>>>>>>>>i have to see the commonsense of all these myself
>>>These doctors cannot be trusted
>>>>the medicine they give is full of chemicals which even cause side effects
>>>>>i do not like medicines
>>>>>>i do not like nurses
>>>>>>>i do not like hospitals
>>>>>>>>i guess i have to do self-forgiveness for my fear of all these
>>>the doctors just do what they do like a robot of the system
>>>>and the information in the internet does not help me to decide what to do
>>>>>i wish i will find something that will tell me what to do exactly
>>>>>>what is the cause of this
>>>>>>>and how to survive this
>>>>>>>>i have to see the commonsense of all these myself
>>>These doctors cannot be trusted
>>>>the medicine they give is full of chemicals which even cause side effects
>>>>>i do not like medicines
>>>>>>i do not like nurses
>>>>>>>i do not like hospitals
>>>>>>>>i guess i have to do self-forgiveness for my fear of all these
>>>I heard Chinese herbs work
>>>>i will investigate everything that can help me because i am alone in this life and death situation
>>>>>this Chinese doctor, she just does what she normally does
>>>>>>she does not really care if i live or die
>>>>>>she does not really care if i live or die
>>>>>>>that acupuncture made me relax a bit, but not much
>>>>>>>>but i did not see any change in my body, or should i see any change?
>>>>>>>>i know she will give me a list of herbs to buy and cook
>>>>>>>>i know she will give me a list of herbs to buy and cook
>>>>>>>>>the taste of these herbs is horrible
>>>>>>>>>>i tend to feel like i want to vomit when i take them
>>>>>>>>>>>but i will take them hopefully this will heal me and make me survive
>>>>>>>>>>i tend to feel like i want to vomit when i take them
>>>>>>>>>>>but i will take them hopefully this will heal me and make me survive
>>>>>>>>>>>they are very bitter and cost a lot of money
>>>>>>>>>>>>illness also cost money
>>>what other things work?
>>>>i remember my friend bought a radionics machine in the US
>>>>let me contact him
>>>>>he said to send him a strand of my hair
>>>>>>and he will see what kind of remedy will match
>>>>>>>let me buy this remedy
>>>>>>>>i hope this works because in a week's time i will have my surgery
>>>>>>>>>i feel that something is being squeezed from within, i do not know what is going on
>>>>>>>>>>but the tumor is still big
>>>>>>>>>>>i do not really have any option but surgery
>>>what other things work?
>>>>i remember my friend bought a radionics machine in the US
>>>>let me contact him
>>>>>he said to send him a strand of my hair
>>>>>>and he will see what kind of remedy will match
>>>>>>>let me buy this remedy
>>>>>>>>i hope this works because in a week's time i will have my surgery
>>>>>>>>>i feel that something is being squeezed from within, i do not know what is going on
>>>>>>>>>>but the tumor is still big
>>>>>>>>>>>i do not really have any option but surgery
>>>this is too much to deal with
>>>>what will happen to my kids if i leave
>>>>>i guess they will still survive as they have survived in the past
>>>>>>even with me abroad
>>>>>>>i do not have much to lose if i die as i do not have much possession and ties
>>>>>>>>but this life is important for me as i would like to do many things in this life to assist people
>>>>>>>>>i don't know how yet
>>>>>>>>>>but i will
>>>>>>>>>>>given more time
>>>>what will happen to my kids if i leave
>>>>>i guess they will still survive as they have survived in the past
>>>>>>even with me abroad
>>>>>>>i do not have much to lose if i die as i do not have much possession and ties
>>>>>>>>but this life is important for me as i would like to do many things in this life to assist people
>>>>>>>>>i don't know how yet
>>>>>>>>>>but i will
>>>>>>>>>>>given more time
>>>>my mom is here again trying to help me and assist me to drink the mushroom capsules
>>>>>she wanted me to take
>>>>>>it's supposed to work
>>>>>>>because she said it worked for her
>>>>>she wanted me to take
>>>>>>it's supposed to work
>>>>>>>because she said it worked for her
>>>>>>>>she's nagging me
>>>>>>>>>and it irritates me
>>>>>>>>>>i noticed i get irritated immediately now
>>>>>>>>>>>this itchy nagging feeling inside my body is stressful
>>>added to that is - people around me are more scared than me of cancer and death
>>>>this is ridiculous, lol
>>>>>i even talk to them that i am allright - and talk to them about their fears
>>>>>>I am grateful that i have learned self-forgiveness
>>>>>>>I am grateful to Desteni
>>>>>>>I am grateful to Desteni
>>>>>>>>I don't know how i can battle this disease without self-forgiveness
>>>>>>>>>somehow i can feel the release in my body when i forgive myself
>>>>>>>>>>but now the lump has grown to the size of a small melon
>>>>>>>>>>>i need to also look at the physical side of things
>>>>>>>>>>>>and find out what to do with my body
>>>>>>>>>>>>>I don't even know what caused cancer
>>>>>>>>>somehow i can feel the release in my body when i forgive myself
>>>>>>>>>>but now the lump has grown to the size of a small melon
>>>>>>>>>>>i need to also look at the physical side of things
>>>>>>>>>>>>and find out what to do with my body
>>>>>>>>>>>>>I don't even know what caused cancer
>>>i can't eat much because of this burning itchy nagging feeling inside me
>>>>these juices will help me feel light
>>>>>solids make me feel heavy
>>>>>>heaviness and that burning itchy nagging feeling that is there constantly is too much for me
>>>>>>>I will make juices - of fruits and herbs throughout the day
>>>>>>>>I have my mom to help me
>>>>>>>>>but i hope she will not nag me
>>>>>>>>>>because that in itself is stressful
>>>>>>>>>>>the surgeon told me i have to get chemotherapy and radiation
>>>>>>>>>>>>he said if i don't, it will be nasty that even my family will not want to visit me
>>>>>>>>>>>>>fuck, how can he scare me when i am ill?
>>>it is difficult to decide which way i am going
>>>> but i am the only one that knows my body well enough
>>>> but i am the only one that knows my body well enough
>>>>>his suggestion is to have radiation to collapse the tumor
>>>>>>then have chemotherapy to kill the cancer cells
>>>>>>>but with that burning itchy nagging feeling here all day plus weakness due to chemo, i will die
>>>>>>>>it is just too much for me to take
>>>>>>>>>and he said there is no chance of survival
>>>so let me have another opinion from another doctor
>>>>he said that radiation can work but again , no chance of survival
>>>>>they diagnosed me as having stage 4 breast cancer
>>>let me talk to another yogi friend, also a surgeon
>>>>he said that my chances in surviving if i opt for surgery is not much but anything is possible
>>>>>>i think that when that throbbing burning itchy feeling is gone when the tumor is gone
>>>>>>>i will be okay because i will feel comfortable
>>>>>>>>he said if they remove all of the tissues in my breast and that's hard to do - there's a chance
>>> i opted for surgery only
>>>>refusing chemotherapy and radiation
>>>>>i still have to make decisions even when i am ill?
>>>>>>This is ridiculous, but what can i do? I am the only one who i can trust to decide for me
>>>>>>>this surgeon is in the operating room so let me request him to remove all breast cancerous tissues
>>>he said he will try, but he did not really like my decision to not have chemo and radiation
>>>>even my oncologist shakes his head with my decision and does not want to look at me in the eye
>>>>>he did not like that i went against his advise - to have radiation and chemotherapy
>>>>>he did not like that i went against his advise - to have radiation and chemotherapy
>>>>>>even my surgeon does not like my decision - it is not what he advised me to do
>>>>>>>now i am awake from the operation
>>>>>>>now i am awake from the operation
>>>>>>>>my left front thigh is bandaged as they grafted my thigh skin to the breast
>>>>>>>>>it's difficult to move my legs
>>>>>>>>>>I am wondering why there's no pain
>>>>>>>>>>>I did not take drugs either after the operation
>>>>>>>>>>>>I feel okay
>>>It is interesting that the yogi friends that came over
>>>>were sad when they came
>>>>>i had to even make the yogi teacher feel better
>>>>>>I am thankful that self-forgiveness is here
>>>>>>>It assisted me in releasing my fears
>>>>>>>>>>>I did not take drugs either after the operation
>>>>>>>>>>>>I feel okay
>>>It is interesting that the yogi friends that came over
>>>>were sad when they came
>>>>>i had to even make the yogi teacher feel better
>>>>>>I am thankful that self-forgiveness is here
>>>>>>>It assisted me in releasing my fears
>>>>>>>>>the burning, itchy, nagging feeling is gone
>>>>>>>>>>but my body is deformed
>>>>>>>>>>>what will my husband think of my body?
>>>>>>>>>>>>how will he survive without sex for about 3 months
>>>>>>>>>>>>>I am worried that he will cheat
>>>>>>>>>>>what will my husband think of my body?
>>>>>>>>>>>>how will he survive without sex for about 3 months
>>>>>>>>>>>>>I am worried that he will cheat
>>>I am scared of wounds and blood
>>>> yet they wanted me to nurse my breast wound myself
>>>> yet they wanted me to nurse my breast wound myself
>>>>>this is scary
>>>>>>and they also wanted me to change the dressing of the thigh wound, are you kidding me?
>>>>>>and they also wanted me to change the dressing of the thigh wound, are you kidding me?
>>>>>>but it's good to know that i am still here
>>>>>>>i only have myself and self-forgiveness, nothing else, when i faced death
>>>>>>>>self-forgiveness works
>>>>>>>>>i am grateful
>>>I am also thankful that i saw my desires and fears about how i look
>>>>how can i not know that i have fear of my body being deformed
>>>>>until now, after surgery?
>>>>>>I did not know i had fear of death until now, that i faced death in the face
>>>>>>>I really thought i did not have any fear of death nor being deformed
>>>>>>>>my thigh has changed
>>>>>>>>> i have only one breast
>>>>>>>>>>that's sad
>>>>>>>>>>>i am just glad that my husband has a good health care coverage that covers both of us
>>>>>>>>>>>>the treatment bills cost $30,000
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i will be fucked without this insurance
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I am grateful that he works in a good company
>>>how will my husband react to these changes in my body, i wonder?
>>>>that remains to be seen
>>>>>I hope he does not mind these changes
>>>>>> I really do not know what he is thinking so I know he will not
>>>>>>>>>>>>but at the moment all i care about is that i am alive
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i am really grateful that i am alive
>>>>>>>i only have myself and self-forgiveness, nothing else, when i faced death
>>>>>>>>self-forgiveness works
>>>>>>>>>i am grateful
>>>I am also thankful that i saw my desires and fears about how i look
>>>>how can i not know that i have fear of my body being deformed
>>>>>until now, after surgery?
>>>>>>I did not know i had fear of death until now, that i faced death in the face
>>>>>>>I really thought i did not have any fear of death nor being deformed
>>>>>>>>my thigh has changed
>>>>>>>>> i have only one breast
>>>>>>>>>>that's sad
>>>>>>>>>>>i am just glad that my husband has a good health care coverage that covers both of us
>>>>>>>>>>>>the treatment bills cost $30,000
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i will be fucked without this insurance
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I am grateful that he works in a good company
>>>how will my husband react to these changes in my body, i wonder?
>>>>that remains to be seen
>>>>>I hope he does not mind these changes
>>>>>> I really do not know what he is thinking so I know he will not
>>>>>>>>>>>>but at the moment all i care about is that i am alive
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i am really grateful that i am alive
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Note: Desires are fuelled by fears. The 'positive' comes from the accumulation of the 'negative'
Let's look at Some of my Fears and Desires:
Fear 1: fear of being physically deformed
Desire 1: to be physically perfect
Fear 2: fear of others knowing i am ill/sick having a tumor in my breast/cancer
Desire 2: to eat healthy food - without any illness/without any tumor/cancer
Fear 3: fear of not knowing the cause of cancer so i can avoid doing it and survive
Desire 3: to research - to know the cause of cancer so i will be able to avoid it
Let's look at Some of my Fears and Desires:
Fear 1: fear of being physically deformed
Desire 1: to be physically perfect
Fear 2: fear of others knowing i am ill/sick having a tumor in my breast/cancer
Desire 2: to eat healthy food - without any illness/without any tumor/cancer
Fear 3: fear of not knowing the cause of cancer so i can avoid doing it and survive
Desire 3: to research - to know the cause of cancer so i will be able to avoid it
Fear 4: fear of not knowing what happens to other cancer patients
Desire 4: to know what they went through - to see how they survived and be able to beat this disease - so i can survive the disease
Desire 4: to know what they went through - to see how they survived and be able to beat this disease - so i can survive the disease
Fear 5: fear of doctors
Desire 5: desire to take care of myself and eat healthy food at home and not go to the hospital to see a doctor
Desire 5: desire to take care of myself and eat healthy food at home and not go to the hospital to see a doctor
Fear 6: fear of nurses
Desire 6: desire to take care of myself - eat healthy food at home and not go to the hospital
and be taken cared of by a nurse
Desire 6: desire to take care of myself - eat healthy food at home and not go to the hospital
and be taken cared of by a nurse
Fear 7: fear of hospitals
Desire 7: desire to not get sick, eat healthy food and take care of myself at home and forever be healthy so i will not be sick and be in the hospital
Fear 8:fear of being alone when i die
Desire 8: desire to have/be with someone when i die- to save me, just in case i encounter pain and suffering - so he can hold my hand and assure me everything will be okay
Desire 7: desire to not get sick, eat healthy food and take care of myself at home and forever be healthy so i will not be sick and be in the hospital
Fear 8:fear of being alone when i die
Desire 8: desire to have/be with someone when i die- to save me, just in case i encounter pain and suffering - so he can hold my hand and assure me everything will be okay
Let's look at Some of My Beliefs:
Belief 1: if my body is deformed, people will not like me because i look ugly
Belief 2: if others know i am sick they will look down on me
Belief 3: if i know the cause of cancer i will be able to avoid it
Belief 4: that if i know how others survive cancer i will know to survive cancer
Belief 5: that doctors do not care believing they do not even care about what they eat
so they will not care about me nor what i eat
so they will not care about me nor what i eat
Belief 6: that nurses are paid to take care of sick people - believing that they only do what they do because they are paid to do it
Belief 7: that hospitals are places where sick people stay
Belief 8: believing that i do not know what happens after death - believing that because i do not know what happens when i die i have to have someone with me to save me from danger, pain or suffering - believing that if i am alone, no one will save me and i will suffer alone - believing i need someone to save me from pain and suffering and assure me everything will be okay
Belief 7: that hospitals are places where sick people stay
Belief 8: believing that i do not know what happens after death - believing that because i do not know what happens when i die i have to have someone with me to save me from danger, pain or suffering - believing that if i am alone, no one will save me and i will suffer alone - believing i need someone to save me from pain and suffering and assure me everything will be okay
Quote:
' your mind is that very system that manipulate, deceive and lie
to your very beingness to get your beingness to respond
in a very particular specific way to the mind'
Interview from Eqafe
to your very beingness to get your beingness to respond
in a very particular specific way to the mind'
Interview from Eqafe
I ask myself these questions:
1. Is my beingness trapped within this pattern (at the beginning at the blog)?
2. Can i free my beingness from this trap?
To See the Problem and Solution
1. Is my beingness trapped within this pattern (at the beginning at the blog)?
2. Can i free my beingness from this trap?
To See the Problem and Solution
follow the link, Problem Solution Reward
Quote:
'The energy of fear takes the physical body and so ones beingness into a resonant state of stress and tension and when one move ones sound in the self-forgiveness as a gentle soft depth, assist and support with that change of energy and its consequence to self stability in the physical body... '
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'What is fascinating about desire is also its often or frequent attachment to fear in that one will be in a desire but at the same time there will be a fear as well in how one get into that internal conflict for a moment - i want to but i don't but i can't stop myself, oh and there i go and then one give in to the particular specific desire...'
'The energy of fear takes the physical body and so ones beingness into a resonant state of stress and tension and when one move ones sound in the self-forgiveness as a gentle soft depth, assist and support with that change of energy and its consequence to self stability in the physical body... '
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'What is fascinating about desire is also its often or frequent attachment to fear in that one will be in a desire but at the same time there will be a fear as well in how one get into that internal conflict for a moment - i want to but i don't but i can't stop myself, oh and there i go and then one give in to the particular specific desire...'
From the Interview: When Desire becomes Overwhelming
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Decoding The Mind of a Fruitarian Day 87 Light Headedness
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In my past blogs i was decoding my mind as a meat eater
cooked vegetarian, cooked vegan, raw foodist, sungazer/liquidarian,
and as a juice feaster,
I am in a way hacking my mind
decrypting the codes of my mind
When i looked at my food programming timeline
I saw repeating patterns
Let's look at My Mind As A Fruitarian
(one surviving on fruits only)
I will bring my memories back here of when i was Fruitarian (surviving on fruits)
I am in a way hacking my mind
decrypting the codes of my mind
When i looked at my food programming timeline
I saw repeating patterns
Let's look at My Mind As A Fruitarian
(one surviving on fruits only)
I will bring my memories back here of when i was Fruitarian (surviving on fruits)
and look at it:
I am reprogramming myself
equal to and one with how i created myself
Note: Desires are fuelled by fears. The 'positive' comes from the 'negative'
Let's look at
Fear 1: being sick Desire 1: to be healthy
Fear 2: looking ugly and old Desire 2: to look young
Fear 3: difficulty Desire 3: easy life
' your mind is that very system that manipulate, deceive and lie
to your very beingness to get your beingness to respond
in a very particular specific way to the mind'
Interview from Eqafe
What Is the Decision i made?
To be a fruitarian
Pattern Number 7
The Fruitarian Mind:
> Memory1: I saw a man in a youtube video surviving just eating fruits
>>Wow, i'd also like to do that
>>>That will be cool to be able to just survive on fruits
>>>>My digestive tract will be really clean
>>>>>and i will look like a young innocent girl
>>>>>>thin and petite
>>>>>>>that is really exciting
>>>>>>>>i will have a peaceful mind free of desire for tasty cooked and raw foods
>>>>>Memory2: My dad had an illness so i visited him one day
>>>>>>I was surprised to know that he was just eating fruits
>>>>>>>he looked 10 years younger his age
>>>>>>>>that is amazing
>>>>>>>>> and he's healed himself from his illness
>>>>>>>>>>wow, the fruitarian diet works
>>>>>>>>>>>it healed my father
>>>>>>>>>>>>he looked good because he just ate fruits
>>>>>>>>>>>>>his body became so clean
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>bacteria and viruses cannot invade it
>>>>>Backchat: i might as well just eat fruits
>>>>>>heal myself and let this small lump disappear
>>>>>>> and at the same time look young
>>>>>>>>>i will feel good and will look good
>>>>>>>>>>>since my husband is younger than me
>>>>>>>>>>>>this will not make me look old when i am with him in public
>>>>>>>>>>>>>i guess i have to eat a lot of fruits and eat always
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>but that is difficult to do because i will still cook vegetarian food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>for my husband
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>I will be tempted to try his food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>and I also like to eat the foods that taste good
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>but i have to do this because i have a small lump
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>i will not tell my husband about the lump because he might panic
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>before he knows it
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>i will be able to make it disappear
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>then i don't have to deal with his negative reaction
>>>>>Backchat: my mind is finding it difficult to focus
>>>>>>I feel too light
>>>>>>>I fear that i will not be grounded
>>>>>>>>I can't do this
>>>>>>>>>my head feels so light
>>>>>>>>>>I can easily tip over or fall
>>>>>>>>>>>This is too difficult
>>>>>>>>>>>>but this is the only way i can stop this lump from getting bigger
>>>>>>>>>>>>>I think being a raw foodist again is okay
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>because i will also eat fresh fruits, vegetables and nuts
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>it is not as good as being a fruitarian
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>but raw food is better than cooked vegetarian food
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This looks like a pattern - within a program
I defined myself into existence
programming myself through words spoken in the mind
creating myself through writing words, speaking words
and expressing myself through words
In blogs to come
I defined myself into existence
programming myself through words spoken in the mind
creating myself through writing words, speaking words
and expressing myself through words
In blogs to come
I will rewrite myself
To through writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application
stop sentences in the book i have written within myself
my whole life story in this book that is myself
my whole life story in this book that is myself
I am reprogramming myself
equal to and one with how i created myself
Note: Desires are fuelled by fears. The 'positive' comes from the 'negative'
Let's look at
Fear 1: being sick Desire 1: to be healthy
Fear 2: looking ugly and old Desire 2: to look young
Fear 3: difficulty Desire 3: easy life
Fear 4: toxins Desire 4: purify
Fear 5: Cooked vegetarian food Desire 5: raw food
Fear 6: Raw food Desire 6: Juicing
Fear 7: Juicing Desire 7: Raw Food
Fear 8: feeling light taking only fruits Desire 8: feel full eating fruits, veggies and nuts
Fear 9: eating tasty cooked food Desire 9: eating tasty food
Fear 10: having tumor/Cancer Desire 10: for the tumor to disappear - eating healthy
Let's look at My Beliefs:
Belief 1: my digestive tract will be clean when i eat fruits only - it will have no toxins
Belief 2: I will have a peaceful mind without desire for tasty food
Belief 3: i will look young like my dad - because he looked young after eating fruits only for a month - i guess this is because his body did not have to deal with toxins from cooked foods, cooked fats etc. in the digestive tract
Belief 4: lumps in the body comes from toxins
Belief 5: bacteria and viruses cannot attack the body when it is clean from toxins
Belief 6: the fruitarian diet makes me feel light headed
Quote:
' your mind is that very system that manipulate, deceive and lie
to your very beingness to get your beingness to respond
in a very particular specific way to the mind'
Interview from Eqafe
To be a fruitarian
What is the'Momentary' Reward i get ?
'Happiness' within thinking that if i do this or become fruitarian, i will clean my digestive tract, will make the lump disappear and not go to the hospital.
A momentary feeling that makes me feel that i did something to deal with the problem and that i provided a solution - an idea of a relief, an illusion in my mind, not really real
I ask myself these questions:
1. Is my beingness trapped within this pattern?
2. Can i free my beingness from this trap?
To See the Problem Solution and Reward
'Happiness' within thinking that if i do this or become fruitarian, i will clean my digestive tract, will make the lump disappear and not go to the hospital.
A momentary feeling that makes me feel that i did something to deal with the problem and that i provided a solution - an idea of a relief, an illusion in my mind, not really real
I ask myself these questions:
1. Is my beingness trapped within this pattern?
2. Can i free my beingness from this trap?
To See the Problem Solution and Reward
follow the link, Problem Solution Reward
Quote:
'The energy of fear takes the physical body and so ones beingness into a resonant state of stress and tension and when one move ones sound in the self-forgiveness as a gentle soft depth, assist and support with that change of energy and its consequence to self stability in the physical body... '
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'What is fascinating about desire is also its often or frequent attachment to fear in that one will be in a desire but at the same time there will be a fear as well in how one get into that internal conflict for a moment - i want to but i don't but i can't stop myself, oh and there i go and then one give in to the particular specific desire...'
'The energy of fear takes the physical body and so ones beingness into a resonant state of stress and tension and when one move ones sound in the self-forgiveness as a gentle soft depth, assist and support with that change of energy and its consequence to self stability in the physical body... '
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'What is fascinating about desire is also its often or frequent attachment to fear in that one will be in a desire but at the same time there will be a fear as well in how one get into that internal conflict for a moment - i want to but i don't but i can't stop myself, oh and there i go and then one give in to the particular specific desire...'
From the Interview: When Desire becomes Overwhelming
Friday, February 8, 2013
Redefining Fruitarianism: The Mind of a Fruitarian Day 62
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Memory of what happened:
>Memory: I saw a man in a youtube video surviving just eating fruits
>>Memory: My dad had an illness so i visited him one day and was surprised to know that he was just eating fruits, he looked 10 years younger his age and he's healed from his illness
>>>I believed that the fruitarian diet healed my father
>>>> I believed that he looked good because he just ate vegetables
>>>>>Memory: Decided to eat only fruits
>>>>>>Memory: I felt light, I looked younger
Note: have a look below - what you see is a copy of how i programmed myself as the mind in relation to food.
To Be Continued in the coming blogs
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A Copy of
My Food Programming
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- I was born to this world without an assurance that i will get the basic necessities i need to survive
- I fear surviving in this world of competition and self-interest
- I cried and when my mom heard me cry, she came and fed me mother's milk
- I fear surviving in this world of competition and self-interest
- I cried and when my mom heard me cry, she came and fed me mother's milk
- My family fed me anything that was available for me to survive and i ate it
- I saw them cooking and eating food so i tasted it and liked the taste of it so i ate what was served on the table
- I liked meat when i was young specifically 'humba' ( pigs knuckles in a Philippine 'humba' sauce, a dish my mother cooked for me) so i ate more of it and other foods that was given to me
- To forget my fears, i entertained myself with food
- To forget my fears, i entertained myself with food
- I heard a story where my grandmother was telling me that when i was young, she was so angry to see a cockroach very near me while she was watching me as I was sick and dying in the hospital. She said that, that happened when she was ' praying to God to save my life and at the same time imploring him to take my life and not let me suffer if it was not meant for me to survive'. 'I was scared to know that i was at one time in the past dying'
- When i was about 7 -8 yrs old, i felt weak, as i was lying down on bed in the house of my grandmother, having a flu hating the 'bad taste' of the medicine she gave me
- When i was in high school i was having heart pains - and was told by a doctor that i have 'angina', a mild form of heart disease which the 'specialist' dismissed as 'nothing' after he tested my heart. He advised me to just play outdoors' - yet in my mind i had this fear of getting sick and fear of death which i kept to myself suspecting that there's something going on in my body which i am not aware of nor they are aware of.
- I did yoga and meditation (fear of getting sick)
- I heard and read that the 'sentient vegetarian diet' (a vegetarian diet without onions, garlic, mushroom and eggs) was a healthy diet
- I was invited to a sentient vegetarian dinner where they were talking about health
- I had the idea that this can stop my heart pains and will stop me from getting sick
- I adopted a 'sentient' cooked vegetarian diet - believing that food like mushroom, garlic, onion, meat, fish etc. has 'negative energy' in them' and that generally vegetables, fruits, nuts, milk, butter have positive energy in them (as the guru said so )
- I learned how to cook a 'tasty' vegetarian diet
- I learned how to cook a 'tasty' vegetarian diet
- I believed that the vegetarian diet is 'better than' a carnivorous diet - believing it is a 'healthy diet'
- I practiced the 'sentient vegetarian diet' for 29 years and believed the sentient vegetarian diet is healthy and that it is the diet of spiritual people or highly evolved people
- I attended a vegan get-together and saw a film where the doctor took solidified fat inside a man's artery
- I had a fear going to the hospital - fear of being operated on, fear of pain, fear of sickness, fear of death
- I did not like the diet - as it tasted bland
- Disregarded my fear of eating bland food because i know i can make the food taste good
- I adopted a vegan diet (fear of getting sick/ fear of death)
- I ate in a restaurant and tasted raw' tasty' food
- I researched about raw food
- I read that raw food can heal people's illnesses
- I took knowledge and information that i have heard and seen from the media as my truth
- I learned how to make raw foods (fear of getting sick)
- I adopted a raw food diet
- It tasted good
- I 'felt good and looked good' after eating 100% raw food
- I equated eating 100% raw food to 'being the best diet in the planet'
- Some of my raw food friends started juice feasting
- I had a very tiny lump the size of a small bead in my right breast that is growing bigger
-I got scared
- I decided to juice feast believing it will get smaller
- I decided to juice feast believing it will get smaller
- I felt very light
- I saw a man in a youtube video surviving just eating fruits
- My dad had an illness so i visited him one day
- I was surprised to know that he was just eating fruits, he looked 10 years younger his age and he's healed from his illness
- I was surprised to know that he was just eating fruits, he looked 10 years younger his age and he's healed from his illness
- I believed that the fruitarian diet healed my father
- I believed that he looked good because he just ate vegetables
- Decided to eat only fruits (Fear of looking bad/not looking good)
- I felt light, I looked younger
- I fear that i feel too light that i will not be grounded
- I fear that i feel too light that i will not be grounded
- I started eating raw food again
- I saw the lump getting bigger
- I felt an itchy nagging feeling inside my body
- I was diagnosed with breast cancer
- I drank herbs from the Chinese doctor once a day and juiced fruits and herbs throughout the day
- I tried juice feasting again so i will feel light and can deal with the itchy nagging feeling
- I was operated on
- The nagging feeling disappeared
- I decided to eat raw foods again- The nagging feeling disappeared
- I saw a man in a youtube video teaching personal fitness and running very fast who claimed he was a breatharian
- I wanted to know if the body still has energy even when it's not getting food
- I researched about inedia and breatharianism
- I found out Lao Tzu who i traced as the proponent of 'Taoism' - is the proponent of Inedia
- I found out that he just disappeared from where he was staying riding an animal
- I connected his diappearance to 'immortality'
- i got interested in 'inedia' (Fear of not being immortal/Fear of sickness & death)
- I connected his diappearance to 'immortality'
- i got interested in 'inedia' (Fear of not being immortal/Fear of sickness & death)
- Where i work, they started a weight loss contest
- I signed up
- I also want to lose weight (Fear of gaining weight)
- My plan is to not eat so i will be ahead in the competition
- I decided to test not eating nor drinking for 3 1/2 days
- I also want to lose weight (Fear of gaining weight)
- My plan is to not eat so i will be ahead in the competition
- I decided to test not eating nor drinking for 3 1/2 days
- I started fasting without water nor food once a week and then twice a week,
- I fasted 2 1/2 days a week and then 3 1/2 consecutive days not eating nor drinking
- I found out my body only wants to sleep for 2 hrs and has all the energy throughout the day to do what needs to be done
- I fasted 2 1/2 days a week and then 3 1/2 consecutive days not eating nor drinking
- I found out my body only wants to sleep for 2 hrs and has all the energy throughout the day to do what needs to be done
- I found out i can run faster when i was not eating - also feeling so light - than when i was eating
- I was mesmerized by these new found 'feats'
- I considered myself 'special' believing that the majority of people eats food and i didn't - believing they were 'normal and i was special'
- I found out my body is beginning to adopt to not eating on the third day of the 'no water no food fast'
- I fear sickness and death - so it came up and i saw myself fearing not being able to eat for a long period of time
- I heard someone saying that breatharianism is a 'mind energetic bullshit'
- I fear continuing my fast (fear of getting sick/death)
- I stopped
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